flowers for algernon

bad idea. bad bad bad idea.


I was starved today, and outnumbered 3 to one....AND it actually looked good. and I did it, I did the unspeakable.
I ate a chili cheese fries burrito.

and uggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

the worst feeling in the world, since the first bite at about 10 this morning I feel as though my stomach has been at war with the rest of my body.


sick. that was the worst decision, that is definitely crossed OFF my 'I need to do new things' list.

meat's no treat for those you eat.


but on a good note, we went to a thrift store and James the lames bought me Flowers for Algernon.
This book is so sad, and I've read it so many times. But I never tire of it, I love it.

Tomorrow is my last day at Ashley's furniture.
scary

update

holy moley, how I forget about these things so easily.

And I'm glad I have, I dare say I've done a little Kristen searching since my last blog, and I am so happy with the outcome so far.

I don't know when it happened, or even why it happened.. but it did.

One day, I literally woke up and said 'that's it, it's time for a change'

I vowed to myself that I was going to live a little while I'm here. That I was going to stop looking back on what I've missed out on and enjoy every second of what I have left. That I would do things I've never done before, that I would stop making excuses and just DO something... something so simple as going places when I'm invited, quitting a job I hated, indoor skydiving, yoga hell class.

And I've loved every second of it.

I don't know how it happened. But suddenly I'm one optimistic gal. I'm not so afraid anymore, I'm enjoying myself.
I'm closing my eyes and jumping into the deep end.

so, my future is bright, well.. at least I'm thinking it is.


next tuesday I start another semester of school, ahhh. even though my schedule sucks I can't wait to start, my books have been coming in the mail and I get more excited everyday. I love school.
and next tuesday I also [re]start my job at starbucks, where I will be getting paid a whole lot less, but I'm hoping I will be a whole lot happier.




things to do in the [near] future:
*swim with dolphins
*study abroad
*help someone appreciate themselves

wish me luck
:]

Merry Kristen

Confession 7: I think I'm too tired for my age.


I don't think I do too much, but I'm always exhausted. Maybe it's because I don't eat right, or maybe I just really like naps, maybe it's because my mom has trained me that there really is no life after 10.. it's phone off, computer off, go to sleep.
boring.


it's Christmas eve, all my family comes over so we can open presents.
I was much more excited for it yesterday, now I'm just kinda ready for it to be over so I can go to sleep.
But maybe I'll be more excited when my family actually gets here.

And then it's off to James' very very very very large family.

EEEEKKKK.

God be with me.


There's a line of my siblings waiting to use my brand new and BEAUTIFUL labtop (check that off the list) so this post shall be short and meaningful..


ENjoy

and in the event that I can't write tomorrow...

confession 5:

I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow, and I already regret it.

why oh why would I do it then?


who knows..

I can see the finish line... and it just starts another race

so much for updated daily....



I've got two finals down, and just two more to go.

I'm so close to being done I can TASTE it.
And I was soooo looking forward to a break, but nope.. instead I have to work a different day every week.
sucks.

Then in two short weeks I'll be starting the winter semester, which is only 6 weeks so it shouldn't be too hard.
and after that...

no break, starting a heavy load for the spring semester.

I'm gonna try to cut a day of work (if he lets me) so hopefully I'll just be able to survive money-wise. It's gonna be a huge pay cut.


Things to do before school starts again:

1. finish Christmas shopping
2. remind Larry that I'm going to have to work one less day every week.
3. go to disneyland
4. get my labtop so I can pass my online class.

I think those are pretty decent goals.


confession #4:
I don't like being in a big group. of people.

Never.

not even if I know every single person in the group. I'm a one on one gal.
Parties, get togethers, being the 'new' person somewhere where everyone knows each other...
nope.
not for me..

not because I dislike people, and I'm sure if I talked to each of those people one on one I would like them just fine.
but all at once, eek.

In those situations I always feel like I'm being drowned, with no hope of survival.
it makes me apprehensive and I just want to go home with Lucy; she never makes me meet new people.

..although she does make me chase very large dogs down the street



that's all for me, I need to get home and study.

i need to go to disneyland.

oh, won't you go to disneyland with me?

and my heart's keeping time to the speed of sound...

confession 3: I'M SERIOUSLY RETARDED IN ALGEBRA

I've taken the same two math practice tests around 4 times each... and the best score I've gotten was 67%.
what the heck is the point of going to class tomorrow if every time (besides that GLORIOUS D) I've failed every practice test.
I swear to God math formulas change for every effin problem.

and you know what.. I'm gonna keep practicing. Because I refuse to believe that I'm not worth an A in simple algebra.
how am I supposed to do the more difficult algebra next semester... and even the one after that? AND THAT'S THE SIMPLE MATH! just enough to get out of community college.
op my goodness.



that's ok.
at least I can answer phones for the rest of my life.




oooooooooooooooon a brighter note.
I'm getting my laptop soon.
I'm not sure how yet.
but it's a coming!




yesterday is history
(be gone!)
and it's never coming back